Hey, look. The Depression Fairy

Quoting one of the greatest bloggers who has ever lived: “Some people have a legitimate reason to feel depressed, but not me. I just woke up one day feeling sad and helpless for absolutely no reason.” Well, I perhaps know the reason. Recently 80-90% of my friends are finally moving forward with their lives. They are moving away, following their dreams, getting engaged, getting married, studying what they want, etc. And my boyfriend finally received an Army order and got sent to a training mission in Atlanta.

I guess I do know why I’m depressed? >_>; Ladeedah.

It’s just that I feel idiotic when people whose parents are dead or who are dying from starvation are out there and I’m like: “boo-hoo, my friends and I are growing up and they’re actually turning into productive members of society, boo-hoo.” Mierda! And then for some reason, I develop momentary self-esteem issues in which I just attack myself as if I was some kind of nasty other worldly demigod that needs to be taken down.

Yes. I saw The Avengers. It was AWESOME.

VERY... Awesome...

But seriously, guise. Seriously. How do you make depression stop before it gets worse? Because I’m not at that point yet (hurrhurr, I typed yeti) and frankly, I don’t want to get to that …POINT. Because there’s no other way of saying it POINT POINT. There probably is but my mental thesaurus is currently out of order and the computer’s internet-receiving thing is acting like an angsty teenage girl.

Anyway, I don’t want to be sad anymore. I want to stop it.

I want to rebel like Allie Brosh did.

I want to be free like I was before! Free to feel sad in short hormonal menstruation time bursts! Not all the time! Abloobloo!

So what’s the deal? I already have lists of all the bunch of stuff I want to do with my life. Should I just keep at it? Keep trying to to do things?

…No. I don’t “have to TRY to do things”… I have to DO things. I HAVE TO DO THINGS.

And how do I start? Getting that goddamn driver’s license. Thor knows I need that chet. …I still don’t know if I want to curse here. Who’s my audience!? WHO’S MY AUDIENCE?!

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English as a Second Language

This is for a presentation I have to do tomorrow for English Week… Wish me luck!

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Hello, my name is Yeidi Morales. I’m a student here in the University of Puerto Rico: Arecibo Campus. I’m currently on my fourth year and I’m studying Industrial Psychology.

I’m here today to talk to you about my experience as an ESL student.

I’ve been speaking in English since I was in pre-school. I remember my mom and I used practice counting going up and down every staircase. No flight of stairs was safe from our dedicated counting. I could count to twenty both in Spanish and English. I always did have problems with 17, 18 and 19, but otherwise I did all right. From then on my English education continued like any other here in Puerto Rico. I didn’t particularly excel in this foreign tongue but I could go to Disney World in Orlando and bravely ask Aladdin and the little mermaid for autographs.

It wasn’t until I was in 4th grade when I started developing a strong affinity for watching T.V. and reading books. Not just any T.V. shows and books though, T.V. shows and books in English. I don’t know what it is that pushed me forward. Maybe it was one of my favorite teachers in elementary school, Mrs. Torres, or maybe it was the fact that I thoroughly enjoyed all the cartoons at the time on Nickelodeon and Disney Channel, or maybe it was the Harry Potter books I started reading around that age. Whatever it was, it inspired me to learn more about the English language. It wasn’t even a conscious effort. It happened to my friends too. It was all kind of accidental but impacting nonetheless.

Soon, we were known as the group that was always talking in English. That image of us would last all the way up until high school. Not much people could ever keep up with us and English itself had turned into some sort “secret code”. We grew rather fond of the idea of talking in such a way that no one but us would understand. It was silly, but we were actually doing ourselves a huge favor. You see, English is basically the most useful language in the world. Learning English can really improve your life in all sorts of ways and I speak from experience. It can give you access to unimaginable amounts of information, it can help your career a tremendous amount and most importantly it can help you communicate with millions of other people.

There is so much accessible information about anything out there, especially now that we have the Internet to fuel this information sharing. It could be anything, sports, music, science, recycling, arts and crafts… Everything is easily accessible! And usually the information you seek is in English. Even if it was originally in Portuguese or Chinese or something, chances are you will find a translated version and that translated version will most likely be in English. This can happen with webpages, books, magazines, comic books, articles and anything else you can think of. Personally, I’ve been able to read so many interesting novels and miscellaneous books, like the aforementioned Harry Potter. I know they translated that into dozens of other languages but hey, I didn’t have to wait for the translated version.

Like I said, English can help your career big time. When you’re fluent in English, you go a long way. That’s almost common knowledge. It’s even better if you are actually able to speak in more than one language. Bilingualism is very well respected and well looked upon. Your future job could depend on whether you know English or not. If they’re trying to pick between you as a job applicant and another job applicant and the only difference between you both is that you can’t speak in English and he or she can, they’ll definitely pick that person. Why? Because apart from the fact that known an extra language can say something good about your intelligence capacities, someone that speaks in English are able to get their company or business further by communicating with other people, like clients or business affiliations.

That brings me to communication. Language as a whole is about communication after all. If you can communicate in English, you can contact people from all over the world. I’m not just talking about people in English speaking countries (although there are many, around a hundred), I’m talking about people from everywhere. English is being taught as a complimentary or second language in places all over the globe. If someone from France takes a second language class, it’ll most likely be English. When you meet someone in a chat room or a website, the probabilities that you will be able to communicate with that person through the English language are pretty high. It’s the most widely spoken language in the world! Thanks to being able to speak fluent English, I’ve gained friends from different parts of the world. Most have been from the United States but I’ve been able to talk to people in Canada and England.

Being able to learn and speak fluent English has opened so many doors for me: doors leading to small opportunities, doors leading to big opportunities. Thanks to the English language I have been able to reach out to people from other countries and establish strong bonds with them. Thanks to the English language I have been able to manifest myself more freely and I have been able to learn many things from all around the world. And I continue to learn things; I never get tired of it. I’m proud to say that I am an ESL student.

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Ellie and Carl: Here With You

Hey! I decided to finally put up some of my art!

Since I was low on cash this last Christmas, I’ve been working nonstop (well, as “nonstop” as a procrastinator gets) on drawings and water color paintings for my closest friends. I’m actually still short on a few more but I hope to finish them before January ends. Another mini-challenge within the challenge that I set myself was to try and make everything be fanart. I always draw original things so I need to practice a bit of fanart. Fanart’s a good way to get recognized as an artist, I think.

Anyway, here’s some of what I’m proud of.

"Here With You" (Ellie and Carl from Pixar's Up)

 

Black Rock Shooter

 

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Smart, Better, Faster, Hedgehog

Okay. I’m just sick and tired of people talkin’ about… What’s the deal with this pop life and when is it gonna fade out!? feeling incompetent. It seems like all the conversations that take place around me of utmost captivation and intellectuality. What’s annoying about that? Well, during those wonderful conversations, I feel like the most irrevocable idiot, unable to donate anything to the discussion! I don’t mind what other people think. What I do mind is the realization of how I’m constantly wasting my time! Why am I not learning as much as I can about the world?

You know what? That’s going to change. This year, I will dedicate myself to learn. I will read all the books I can that are in my house. And not just the novels! Oh no no. I’m reading History, Science and Math! And I’m going to talk about them right here! And share with you whatever knowledge I flippin’ gather.

So my traveling-all-over Puerto Rico plan remains… well, just a plan, especially now that Camou has been sent to Salinas for 2 weeks and then will be sent to Georgia for 6 months starting February. Alas! I will be quite lonely but I’m looking at the Brightside! I’ll have more time to dedicate myself to reading and doing exercises.

 

Finally, I must mention I have a new little friend. His name is Nugget. He’ll hopefully be accompanying me in most of my journeys!

 

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Things to Do when You are Sad Part 1

Go look at Everybody's Free to Wear Sunscreen on Youtube

1.  This video helps me get through tough times. Cheers me up when I’m down by helping me realize that there is much to enjoy about life and that I’m gonna get nowhere if I just mope around.

Listen to good music - happy. Daydream about it. Make scenarios.

2. Listen to music that makes you happy! Alphabeat, the Submarines and the Beatles have some of my favorite happy jams. The Lonely Island is HILARIOUS! They have too many songs that make me laugh my ass off.

Also, the scenarios thing is something I’ve been doing ever since I was little. Especially when I’m about to go to sleep. I just imagine a story in my head. I could be the protagonist or maybe it has nothing to do with me. It could be about romance, it could be about action, adventure… Anything!

Learn something (go look at Wikipedia and learn about things)

3. Google or Wikipedia are your friends. I love to learn. It can be a new language or about science. It can be about world history or the history of your town. It can be about comics or about commercials. Ghost stories, mental disorders, lost civilizations, mythology. Anything! Learning is fun. Learning about things you like is fun.

Watch something you haven't seen before (cartoons and anime are best)

4. It can be a movie. Just try to make it a movie with a happy ending. I say cartoons, though, because those are mostly always aimed to make you smile. It can be anything! I personally love Adventure Time and the Regular Show. Family Guy is amazing too, that one makes me cry laugh tears. Anime can be great for this too! Especially comedic anime. Some of my recommendations are Azumanga Daioh or Nichijou. Those have given me great giggle attacks.

Make something (paper cranes, paper origami boxes)

5. What a wonderful feeling it is to create something with your two hands. You have many things to choose from! You can plant a seed and take care of it yourself, see it grow with your help. You can make paper cranes or origami boxes! I feel so proud of myself when I achieve origami crafts. It can be drawings and paintings of any kind! Crafty projects are usually incredibly fun. They help you focus and bring out the creative soul residing with you.

 

Well, that’s it for now! I’ll leave it at 5 and slowly add more as I make the list for my good friend.

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33 Ways to Be Childlike Today (from TinyBuddha)

by Lori Deschene

“Youth has no age.”~Pablo Picasso

Remember when life was simple?

When your friends were the most important thing in the world. When a snow day was a perfect excuse to have fun, not a block of time when you felt guilty about being unproductive.

When the ice cream truck could make your day, no matter what happened before. Bad grade? Big deal–it’s Snow Cone time. Skinned knee–who cares, you have a screwball!

If only you could bottle that sense of freedom, fun and enthusiasm for the little things, you could carry it in your responsible adult pocket and take a swig when you started taking everything too seriously.

I don’t know about you, but mine would be in a glass vial embellished with red, pink, and purple swirleys, topped with a water globe stopper that had a palm tree in it. (Yeah–that’s right!)

Maybe we don’t need some major departure from business as usual to stop being stuffy and start being childlike (which can actually help you become more innovative–in case sheer joy isn’t motivation enough.)

I’ve compiled a list of 33 ideas to be more childlike today. I chose 33 because it’s the house number where my parents live; and it’s because of them I am the best couch cushion fort maker on both the east and west coasts. Enjoy:

LEARN

1. Read a book you loved as a kid. My book of choice: Oh the Places You Will Go by Dr. Seuss.

2. Figure out how something works, even if it’s irrelevant to your life, just because it’s interesting. Go ahead—Google “How Fish Breathe” or something you don’t fully understand.

3. Fill out your own permission slip to go to the aquarium, a museum, or a nearby tourist attraction. If something looks interesting, take a break and go!

PLAY

4. Do something fun. Make a Lego village, pull out the coloring book, or jump rope.

5. Explore. Walk around your block without any intention. Just see what’s going on, maybe even using a big fallen branch as a walking stick.

6. Run or skip if you feel like it. Flail your arms, like Phoebe in my favorite episode of Friends.

7. Be silly. Look for funny things in your day–they’re always there–and let yourself laugh about them.

8. Try a new look–think the kid from Adam Sandler’s Big Daddy, when he dressed himself, but a little less ridiculous.

SHARE

9. Remember something awesome and call a friend to share it. (i.e.: ‘Member the time we made pizza for breakfast? That was awesome, huh?)

10. Tell someone they’re your hero. If you admire what they do, look right in their eyes and say, “I think you’re pretty awesome.”

11. Be a know it all. Tell someone about something you learned today and get excited about sharing it.

12. Tell it like it is. Don’t be a liar, liar, pants on fire. As Dr. Seuss said, “Say what you mean and mean what you say because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.”

13. Be vulnerable. Tell someone how you feel, or what you really want to be when you grow up, without making them pinky swear to take it to the grave.

14. Share a meal with people around a table, even if it isn’t a special occasion, like that Normal Rockwell painting families often recreate.

 

CONNECT

15. Tell your mom and dad you love them. Call them right now and say it for no reason other than it being true.

16. Make a spontaneous play date. Invite people over right now, for no reason but to have fun, even if you have plans scheduled for the weekend with them.

17. Eat lunch on a rock with a friend. You don’t need a restaurant or a cafeteria. Channel the good old days from camp when a little sand in your PB & J meant a lunchtime adventure.

18. Ask for help if you need it. Just like you used to pull your desk next to someone else’s to read along, walk up to someone you trust, and let them be there for you.

19. Tap into your innocence—meaning give someone the benefit of the doubt, as if you don’t know yet to be cynical.

CREATE

20. Make a card by hand to give to someone you care about. As Pablo Picasso said, “All children are artists. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up.”

21. Get messy when you’re cooking. Not tomato-sauce-on-the-ceiling-fan messy. The point is: let loose and enjoy yourself instead of making cooking a chore.

22. Start a piggy bank. Or a coin jar. You don’t need to save big to save; and you never know what little adventures you can have with just a little extra cash.

23. Try a hands-on project from the Be Creative! Adults section of the Creativity Portal, like gum wrapper origami.

24. Assume you’d be really good at something–piano, rock climbing, organizing a club–and then find out, instead of assuming the opposite.

BE

25. Sit Indian style in your chair if you’re able. Crossed-legged sitting is actually really good for your posture—an added bonus!

26. Surround yourself with your favorite color. If orange makes you smile, plaster orange pictures all over your cubicle.

27. Cry if you need to. If the day gets difficult, don’t try to be a hero. When you let yourself feel it, you’re better able to let it go.

28. Relax and do nothing. Don’t try to fill that empty pocket of time. You’ve been productive enough. Kick back, cut loose, and let yourself waste a little time. As John Lennon said, “Time you enjoyed wasting was not wasted.”

IMAGINE

29. Forget what was tough about yesterday. Why dwell on that fight with your sister when you could be having fun today?

30. Change your mind easily. According to Alison Gopnik, a professor of psychology at the University of California at Berkeley, kids’ brains are extremely flexible, “so they can change what they think based on new evidence very quickly and easily.”

31. Visualize a tomorrow with endless possibilities. Not sure you can be the person you want to be? Read 10 Ways to Be the Person You Wanted to Be as a Kid.

32. Don’t take no for an answer. If there’s something you want to do, be persistent. You can make it happen!

33. Ignore something someone says if it limits you, your potential or your possibilities.

Have anything to add to the list? Go for it. I double dog dare you…

Photo here and here.

 

Original article can be found here.

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Accept my compliments… Or die.

There seems to be a hell of a lot of people nowadays with low self-esteem. The media makes us feel lesser-than and this applies to either gender. Not only the media is a cause of this but sometimes the way that you’re raised also can make you a victim to low confidence.

I’m not going to start mentioning ALL the ridiculous amount of things society manipulates in our lives because I’m not here to talk about that. I’m here because I want to scold a couple of people and at the same time help them by giving them some advice.

People of low self-confidence… Hear my out.

Stop. Disregarding. Compliments.

It’s fine if you do it once in a while but if you are the constant “No, I’m not” or “You’re just being nice”, it can get pretty damn annoying! I’ll give you two solid reasons:

1)      You’re disrespecting my rad opinion. You’re downright telling me I have bad taste. Seriously, person. I mean, you can do the whole polite “Awww, shucks!” or the shy “Naaaah” and smile but even that in great amounts is annoying. I mean, I’m not the most bravest and most confident as the reddest crayon in the box but still! When someone tells me I’m pretty or smart or anything for that matter, I thank that person; but if you’re literally just telling me “No, I’m not” or accusing me of lying to you, it makes me not want to tell you anything at all! And that brings me to my next point…

2)      You are brainwashing me into thinking you’re ugly. What the plop!? Isn’t that what you don’t want, you son-of-a-toot!? Don’t you want to be attractive/pretty/handsome/cute? You can’t flipping lie to me! Mostly everyone likes to be told they are attractive in some form or manner. It doesn’t matter whether you’re superficial or as deep as the ocean. Everyone enjoys compliments.

But seriously, by telling me that I’m wrong and that you’re actually not pretty (smart/awesome/whatever) like I think you are, you’re going to start implanting a subconscious thought in my brain about how you’re NOT awesome. Leave my thoughts alone! Mine are positive! If you don’t like yourself, that means your thoughts are negative, and that means that it’s time to start thinking otherwise. The first step to doing that is to accept the good things that other people tell you. Maybe, hopefully, you’re going to start seeing yourself through the eyes of those who love you most.

 

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I got scolded!

Big G said that I should post more things here because… I can. xD

And it’s true! I got this! I should make use of it even if no one is reading it. Let’s see what’s new about my life…

My boyfriend left to Korea. I’m semi VERY worried and semi quite relaxed. Actually, more than anything, I’m kind of excited for him. You see, Camou is in the army and they sent him for practice to the North of South Korea. We thought it was going to be a jungle-y type of environment but it seems to be pretty mellow considering the circumstances. I haven’t talked to him on the phone but the base he’s staying at has internet. SO WOOT.

Now… I’m getting an edgy haircut. It’s already decided. I’m not caring whether it fits my face (even though I think that it’ll flatter me nicely). I’m going to go ahead and take the risk! I don’t have much to lose! Hair grows back and whatever! Either way, it’s the undercut (at least I believe that’s what it’s called).

I Blame Coco

Oop! Also, I’m very happy! I came up with the names of my 16 main characters of my story. <3 Eventually I’ll post them here. That’ll give me a sense of protection since it’ll be proof that I came up with them first and that I can SUE THE ASS WHOEVER EVEN TRIES TO STEAL THEM. I’m still in the process of adding the information I have thought up in the computer for safekeeping. If I lose those papers before I’ve saved everything I’m going to be a very depressed poop.

I need to call Camou’s mother so me and my friend Paola can go pick up Jack (his dog).

That's Gaby, Jack and half of Camou's face

Bah! I hate it when I don’t know what’s the appropriate time to call someone. \(x_x)/ I will do it at midday… Or perhaps half an hour after midday.

I’ll leave you with a cute tinybuddha article I’ll read right now.

51 Things That Will Make You Smile

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I Hate Computers. Don’t Tell Them Though.

BOB FLIPPING SAGET.
All this time without my computer I’ve been trying to get in here but I was not able to. I tried all the passwords I normally use after trying the one Big G gave me like 10 times and to no avail. D: It was all from another computer though. As soon as I try with mine that I re-acquired a couple of days ago, it works JUST FINE AND DANDY WITH THE PASSWORD BIG G GAVE ME.

Ugh. No matter. We continue on with more important matters: Matters that import to me. Wait, no. Not import. They don’t navigate to me. Matters that… are important to me. Damn it. I wanted to use it as a verb. ARE VERBS ALSO AGAINST ME NOW?

Well, all anger aside.

Guess what! Guess what! (✿◠‿◠) I’m generally very happy because I decided many things!

I decided I want to memorize and visit all the cities of Puerto Rico! I want to perhaps meet a person from each town. I want to go to the best affordable restaurants or the best chinchorros. I want to take pictures and go the tourist fun spots and the non-tourists fun spots. And I want to put everything in a diary. I also want to post it here. But anyway, as you can probably guess, I need a car for this plan. I do have my boyfriend and he has a car so we’ll probably end up doing it together. If he does decide to help me it’d have to be after he’s done with his diet. I’m thinking I’ll go with him to some places and go with my other friends to other places.

I’m going to start first with my dear old hometown Arecibo.


This is the pretty boring Arecibo shield. “Muy Leal” means “Very Loyal”

I’m already reading up some history and information about this ghost town. Information that they taught me in fourth grade (and probably 2nd, 3rd, 5th… >_>) but since I haven’t read it again I’ve forgotten. Maybe I can make it into something big eventually and even start interviewing people. It might help me get in touch with my culture which is something I’ve always desired. ♥

Another thing I’ve decided is that as soon as I get my license (by the way, I demand that you cheer for me since I finally acquired my learner’s permit) is that I’m going to try to set up a Babysitting business! Even if it’s just a weekend job, I think it’d help me a lot with some monetary issues. Also, job experience is always welcomed. And I love kids. =’D Since I have to wait to have my own I might as well take care of someone else’s for short periods of time? Does that make any sense at all?

Either way, now that my bestie/housemate Reymundo moved out to Cayey with his girlfriend/my bestie Coral, there’s a spare room that I can use for kid entertainment! I’m already trying to shape it in my head. I could put coloring books, story books, a mini blackboard with some available chalk, beanbag chairs… I could also download some more Adventure Time apart from the ones I have, some Flapjack and other series I love to share with them. I already talked to my mom about it. I’m gonna get a CPR certificate and a first aid certificate. It’ll help me be more eligible for business!

I’m pretty excited about this. (~ ̄▽ ̄)~ I’m largely excited about it all! Pero na’. I’ll keep you updated.

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